Warmish, and certainly damp.\u00a0\u00a0 Although the national forecast shows clear for a while, I expect some minor precip at some point today or tomorrow, if only because it feels like it.\u00a0 It was not bad at all yesterday, with highs in the sun in the low 80s.\u00a0\u00a0 Felt like spring.<\/p>\n
I did get out of the house and made my trash run.\u00a0\u00a0 Went by my storage unit too.\u00a0\u00a0 Didn’t get half what I wanted to get done, done.\u00a0 {wow, that’s an awkward construction}<\/p>\n
It’s much easier to not do things than to do them.\u00a0 Especially when you are tired, or bored, or melancholic… or you have unbalanced humours and too much black bile in your spleen.\u00a0\u00a0 Or it could be the siren song of teh intarwebs.\u00a0 Whatever.\u00a0\u00a0 Slacked off again and got too little done.\u00a0\u00a0 The bill for that WILL come due, and be higher because of it.<\/p>\n
It’s hard to maintain momentum and forward progress.\u00a0 My whole working life was very project oriented, and the nature of the work was very ‘bursty’.\u00a0\u00a0 Work hard for a while, then have time off.\u00a0\u00a0 Even working full time for BigCorp I was traveling to customer sites where I’d work, or the office in Canadia, or fighting to get my expense and travel report in on time…. all of which took bursts of hard work, focus, and sometimes dogged determination to just get through it.\u00a0 But then there would be some time where nothing was required of me or the level was so low I could phone it in.\u00a0\u00a0 Sprints rather than marathons (although the sprints could last as long as a marathon), quick anaerobic strength moves, not aerobic workouts.<\/p>\n
Lately though, and coming after 3 years of not normal, it’s been a never ending slog.\u00a0\u00a0 Anyone else noticed we don’t do the ‘what have you done to prep this week’ topic any more?\u00a0 Because we’ve been living the disaster for the last three years.\u00a0\u00a0 But this one is really fading to black, despite the spasms and paroxysms of the powers that be. \u00a0 Problem is, no formal end. \u00a0 No closure. \u00a0 No doing the expense report, AAR, “lessons learned” meeting.\u00a0 No putting the files away and cleaning up the workspace… and moving on.<\/p>\n
But there is another disaster coming.\u00a0 There is ALWAYS going to be another disaster coming.\u00a0 To riff off of JimB, the end will be ‘nearerer’ again sooner or later.\u00a0 Flooding and mudslides in Cali, and an earthquake, barely ping our awareness.\u00a0\u00a0 Tornadoes and freak storms in the mid-South hardly register.\u00a0 Maybe we’re all fatigued, disaster fatigued.\u00a0\u00a0 That would be bad by the way, because we wouldn’t be thinking straight, we’d be mentally pliable and subject to manipulation.\u00a0\u00a0 We’d be looking for someone to make it end.\u00a0 And that ain’t good.<\/p>\n
I’m not sure what the answer is.\u00a0\u00a0 Kinda making this up as I go along today, but I think some of us (me) need to reset our baseline expectations.\u00a0 Accept that what we’ve got now IS normal, and move on to living in it, and getting ready for whatever comes next.\u00a0 Just about everything is harder now, takes longer, and costs more than 3 years ago.\u00a0\u00a0 But humans are nothing if not adaptable, and adept at telling ourselves stories that justify or excuse or motivate.\u00a0\u00a0 In a sense we will our personal reality into shape around us.\u00a0\u00a0 We enter and leave relationships, surround ourselves with people and things, spend our lives doing stuff, and shape our experience of the world.<\/p>\n
The world goes on doing its thing regardless of what we’re doing.\u00a0\u00a0 The elephants will dance while we mice hope we can avoid being stepped on.\u00a0 And one day we realize that the dancing changed the shape of the world around us.\u00a0\u00a0 There are still mice in the world though even after the elephants have trampled everything flat.<\/p>\n
And mice gotta eat, so stack some food.\u00a0\u00a0 Stack the means to get more.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Stack dancing shoes, if you think that will help.\u00a0\u00a0 Stack books on living with elephants while avoiding their big stompy feet.\u00a0\u00a0 And get ready to get through the NEXT disaster.<\/p>\n
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Warmish, and certainly damp.\u00a0\u00a0 Although the national forecast shows clear for a while, I expect some minor precip at some point today or tomorrow, if only because it feels like it.\u00a0 It was not bad at all yesterday, with highs in the sun in the low 80s.\u00a0\u00a0 Felt like spring.<\/p>\n
I did get out of the house and made my trash run.\u00a0\u00a0 Went by my storage unit too.\u00a0\u00a0 Didn’t get half what I wanted to get done,<\/p>\n